Monday, May 31, 2010
I should I can and I have to
idea of sincering
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
25052010 - 2nd SHINeeversary :)

random
Thursday, May 20, 2010
it has to be you - yesung
oneuldo nae gieogeul ttarahemaeda
i gil kkeuteseo seoseongineun na
dasin bol sudo eomneun niga nareul butjaba
naneun tto i gireul mutneunda
neol bogo sipdago
tto ango sipdago
jeo haneulbomyeo gidohaneun nal
niga animyeon andwae
neo eobsin nan andwae
na ireoke haru handareul tto illyeoneul
na apado joha
nae mam dachyeodo joha nan
geurae nan neo hanaman saranghanikka
na du beon dasineun
bonael su eopdago
na neoreul itgo salsun eopdago
niga animyeon andwae
neo eobsin nan andwae
na ireoke haru handareul tto illyeoneul
na apado joha
nae mam dachyeodo joha nan
geurae nan neo hanaman saranghanikka
nae meongdeun gaseumi
neol chajaorago
sorichyeo bureunda
neon eodinneungeoni
naui moksori deulliji annni
naegeneun
na dasi sarado
myeot beoneul taeeonado
harudo niga eobsi sal su eomneun na
naega jikyeojul saram
naega saranghal saram nan
geurae nan neo hanamyeon chungbunhanikka
neo hanaman saranghanikka
cr : Korean and Romanization shared by luv@soompi
TRANSLATION
Today, i wander in my memory
I’m pasing around on the end of this way
You’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more
I’m losing my way again
I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more
that i want to see you and hold you more
It can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you
it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you
i cannot send you away one more time
i can’t live without you
it can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you
it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you
my bruised heart
is screaming to me to find you
where are you?
can’t you hear my voice?
to me…
if i live my life again
if i’m born over and over again
i can’t live without you for a day
You’re the one i will keep
you’re the one i will love
i’m…yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
My Fear of Having a New Adaptation
Afraid of doing the new adaptation in the new surroundings is always being a shadow my life. I inquire myself whether I will survive in there or not. It’s my bad habit. If I should face a new surrounding, then I become afraid to adapt and I always think of the worst possibilities. For example, I think that I won’t have friends there and also won’t feel comfort to live there then a changing happen to myself and it will make me to be a quiet and closed person. It’s maybe funny, but I can’t lie that those things are really make me can’t sleep because my mind is always be filled with them.
Here, I had had a real comfortable life. I love the atmosphere and I am surrounded with many good friends. At first, I also had a difficulty with the adaptation but as time goes by now I feel so into them. We face and pass everything together, have a lot of fun, and do laugh in every joke. I’m scared if I can’t find friends like them there.
I know everyone must be able to face new surroundings, so everyone must do that adaptation so he/she can survive and maybe do much better to his/her life. The first thing is please make that fear away. Keep thinking the positive ways, don’t be afraid to face it and keep yourself be friendly to others. If you’re good to them so they will be good to you also. Don’t make yourself be trapped in the old surroundings, because it just only make you feel down and don’t want to get closer with (many) new friends. Then, be active in every activity that holds in there so you won’t feel lonely and find an interesting with your surroundings. Don’t ever make yourself alone so that fear will come to you and make you don’t feel comfort with that place.
Ah, why I give that advice as if I’m the adviser hahahah that the fact is I’m the one who needs the advice. So, the answer is reveled by myself and I should apply those all when I begin to live in the new surroundings. Wish me luck there and hope I can be better to make everyone who supports me don’t feel disappointed with me.
comfusing with money
There are so many things I want to buy. But it all blocked with an important key, and that is money. It’s quite weird but I swear I really crave for many goods. Hahaha. I’ve saved my money but after it summed Rp400.000,- it feels so hard to decide what should I use that money for. In the other side, I wanted to buy a DSLR camera, and also change my glasses, buy some clothes and shoes. For buying a camera, I know that money is not enough for buy a DSLR or even a Polaroid camera. It maybe enough to buy a Lomo but I think if I buy Lomo it’s more useless and I will rarely use it. So if I want to buy DSLR I have to save more money to buy it, but how long it will be? The way out is just keep dreaming it and wish someday I have enough money to buy it from my work.
The second thing is if I want to change my glasses, it will be okay and my mom had agreed about it. Because I have Askes, I can have the discount. But, I’m hesitating whether I will regret if that money is spent for glasses. Besides I also want to buy clothes and shoes. Ah, I miss shopping time. It’s been a long time since I shopped in the last time. I think my clothes are just a few so I want to add more clothes to my wardrobe. I also want to buy new shoes, because the old one is now not proper to be worn.
Maybe if I manage that money well I can buy everything I need, but it was a feeling that I won’t use that money until I save more so I won’t run off of money. It was so confusing. I think I should find a job that can make me get money by myself, by my work. What should it be? I don’t have a lot of talents. I will feel very guilty if I just ask for money to my parents. I shouldn’t cause a fuse for them. I hope as soon as possible much money can come to me, or maybe the money rain will drop tomorrow hahahahah it’s completely fabricating.
Competition Info
Family Holiday to Lembang

Jogja in a short trip
* my queue number *
After the registration had done, my cousin and I went to his grandparents’ home in Turi, Sleman. We went there by motor which was lent from my uncle. We stayed there for one night.
* mas eka and his race motor *
In the next day, we were back to Jogja. I met my friends expressly, Nicko and Bira and talked a lot about many things especially about Jogja. At night, my cousin and I had a walk in Malioboro. We bought a laptop bag and drank Sekoteng. We also visited a shop named Mirota Batik. When I came, I smelled a sting aroma and guess what? It was ‘Menyan’ everywhere. The shopkeeper and maybe the owner still follow a tradition which is called dynamism. After feeling tired, we went to my auntie’s home.
* below is sekoteng *
* MIROTA batik shop, the menyan, and some souvenirs that are sold *






In the next day, we went to a shocking market in UGM and Bringharjo Traditional Market. We were looking for some souvenirs. My cousins wanted to buy batik shirts. Bringharjo is a complete market. We can find shirts, bag, cloth, underwear, and all about batik things, and we also found food like bakpia, lenting, and brem. Moreover, this market also sells spices and vegetables. So complete, isn’t it?
* the condition of Bringharjo Market, and some picts about the goods that are sold *


* the seller is selling spices and traditional food *
At 9pm we had to leave Jogja by Lodaya again. But, it’s different with the departure when we’re in the executive class, this time we’re in business class. I prefer to executive class because it’s more comfortable but I know the cost is more expensive, so I just can enjoy my trip while I’m in the train. It’s so enjoyable and so interesting though just in 3 days 2 nights.
xoxo :)
Book Review : The Rainbow Troops
I want to share about an inspiring story that influent my life. It’s about the story of The Rainbow Troops or in Indonesia is well-known as ‘Laskar Pelangi’. It’s written by Andrea Hirata in 2005. He wrote it based on his own experience when he was growing up in Belitong. This book suddenly became the best seller and a phenomenon in Indonesian literature because of its humanistic touch. It’s a tetralogy, the first book entitled Laskar Pelangi, the second is Sang Pemimpi, the third is Edensor and the last is Maryamah Karpov.


From that tetralogy, all books tell a story about a boy named Ikal who has a big dream to be a success person. He and his 9 friends studied at a school in the poverty-stricken Kampung Gantong in Belitong, named Muhamadiyah primary school. At first, the government will disperse the school if the pupils can’t reach 10 people. They’re hopeless but suddenly a boy came with mother and then they could start to study there. Although the condition was very bad, like a broken school building that almost tumble down, besides the student were included to the poor society, Ikal and his friends had a huge spirit to keep studying there. The poor condition of their school building didn’t dampen their high spirits and hopes for a better future.
It also just had two teachers and a headmaster who teach them. They taught well the students patiently, but they’re optimist that someday these kids will be success. The teachers taught them reading, writing, science and social knowledge, and also religion. In a bad weather, when rain dropped, the class flooded and could be entered by some goats. It’s a poor condition, so the students had to study outside the class. No matter the condition, they went trough it all in a hope they can continuing study. Moreover, it made them study with the nature, had a walk and studied everything that they could learn.
They faced and passed everything that became the obstructions for them to go to school. They had to paddling their bicycle to get to the school. To get the chalk, they also had to go to the city, that farther from the school. But, their spirit was too high to get knowledge from school, so they happily did their duty to get the chalk. They studied diligently and make a great history for their school. However, they didn’t give up and still had big dreams after graduate from primary school. Then, Ikal had to struggle to study in the best High School and also the best university, not in Indonesia, but he tried to go abroad to study in France, in his dreamy college. Many difficulties were impeding Ikal, but he didn’t give up and keep struggle, and when he back to Indonesia, he became a success man.
This story inspired me a lot. I read the book when I was in the 3rd grade of High School. The most inspiring book, according to my opinion, is Sang Pemimpi. Because the story is about a struggle that Ikal gave to reach his dream studying abroad to Sorborne University in Paris. He revealed his best effort so he can reach his dream out. It opened my eyes that there’re still many people didn’t deserve a good public utilities, whereas Belitong is one of the richest island in Indonesia who produces plenty of tins.
I want to have a huge spirit like Ikal and friends, trying the best to reach the dream. I encourage myself to convinced that I also can be like Ikal if I studied hard. I should thank God for all gifts he gave to me like a good facilities and proper school. But, it all will be in vain if we just think that education is just for our fun, if it’s not necessary to be serious in studying because it’s not us who pay the school fee. We have to realize that we should make our parents proud with giving them our good achievements which can make our parents happy and their money is not been wasted.








